ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh thaaaank goodness

it went well


im gonna see a neurologist

i have a new imitrex prescription


i still kinda feel like im gonna pass out from nerves bUT BUT BUT!! THINGS WERE OK!! SO!! yeah!!

made the appointment

vet and doctors

that only took a small amount of time and like 6 months or more Ha Ha Ha



IM SLIIIGGHHTLLLYY TERRIFIED? OF THE DOCTOR ONE? but. going to. try. yeah.


also very nervous about balancing this stuff against work BUUUT YEAH NOTHING FOR IT. theyre both around lunch so i don't think i need to take time off. yeah,

why am i so nervous about going to the doctor

i already know her, it's the good one, THERE'S NOTHING NEW I DON'T UNDERSTAND??? DEAR BRAIN WHAT IS THIS AVERSION TO BASIC SOCIAL INTERACTION BARELY OUTSIDE OF DAILY COMFORT ZONE??


uggggh anxiety stoooooop

man i suddenly remembered that a doctor once suggested that i just take OTC painkillers til my liver fails/the pain ~*~magically stops~*~ to cure a chronic headache

that was a real thing that a medical professional told me to do

i did not do it, obviously, because that would have been a terrible idea and i had already established that OTC stuff didn't do diddly or squat but still it's kind of hard to believe that was an actual thing that happened.


in other Augh Pills news, i got some supplement stuff that is supposed to be good at quelling the physical urge for self-destructive impulse habits. here is hoping it keeps me from scratching all my skin off/chewing all my nails off/insert various other more embarrassing habits here.


i don't know what's wrong with me i just know there's a substantial amount of it

Stomach!! Are you sick? If so, are you sick because I did not feed you?

You're not allowed to be mad if you didn't bother to even tell me I was hungry. That's not fair. And if you're just plain ol sick for no reason.... AAAAHHH STOP??? I HAVE SHIT TO DO TOMORROW! IT'S 1:30AM! I WANT TO SLEEP!!!

Stomach pls stop :(