why am i so nervous about going to the doctor

i already know her, it's the good one, THERE'S NOTHING NEW I DON'T UNDERSTAND??? DEAR BRAIN WHAT IS THIS AVERSION TO BASIC SOCIAL INTERACTION BARELY OUTSIDE OF DAILY COMFORT ZONE??


uggggh anxiety stoooooop

secondary blogs having replies makes me sorely tempted to make a personal tumblr, mostly for talking to people
but
i hate tumblr
i hate it so much....

i've also shortly entertained the notion of getting a twitter, but i have no idea what i'd use it for- i have nothing to say that I'd want to do so publicly, and jack fuckin shit going on in my professional life, so who cares there.... also i tend to be a longwinded jerk.

idk, i need to like.... promote.... myself.... and.... be social... but idk how to do that? outside of just the usual artblogging?

i just stare at my linkedin whispering
"what do i put here"

it seems pretty ineffective so far

edit: oh i also have that google+ that's been sitting around forever, making image searches kinda creepy ("YOU") and being empty because i have no idea what to put there

aaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY!!!